No use in dwelling on the things you'll soon forget.

The going ons...

2009-10-24T14:18:54Z

Do guys not ask girls out on dates anymore? I'm tired of just "hanging out" and the expectation of more to be there. Fucking buy me a dinner.

School is going... slowly. I love my Social Psych class so much. It's made me kinda want to major in psychology but ehhh, pass.

I turn 24 in ten days. Kind of wild. I bought a birthday dress.. I will party in it, even if I have to do it alone.

My parents bought me new spex for my b'day:

Missed the Meat Puppets this week and that was a fucking bummer.

I guess everything else is going well.
I may be going down to Florida Halloween weekend.
But probably not: refer back to the first thing I said.
I'm tired of pursuing.. fuck 'em.

noroomtobreathe @ 2009-08-31T16:50:00

2009-08-31T21:52:13Z

Ya can't fake love.

noroomtobreathe @ 2009-08-27T19:54:00

2009-08-28T00:59:54Z

I'm on the cusp of fine madness.
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There's a canteen in the hospital that I frequent once a day at work. Since I'm in there so much I'll say hi to the employees and ask how they are, etc. There's this one older man in there that is possibly a volunteer, I'm not sure. But I do know that he's a little slower, something is obviously mentally wrong with him. He's fond of me and I of him. I can tell some days that he's more agitated or down than others. Today while I was in line to buy my soda, I told him hi like normal and he went on about his work. Then he came back up to me and said, "Jessica, you know, we can talk to a lot of people, but sometimes we just have to stop and talk to God. Just stop and talk to God more often." Then he just walked away.

This happened about an hour after a visit to my therapist, ya know, someone I pay to talk to.
Maybe he's right.
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Last night I had to drag a very drunk guy back into his hotel room. He was in the hallway knocking on doors, really upset that if he dies, that all it's worth is half-mass. It took me and another dude to get him to chill out. I just had to walk away in shock.

noroomtobreathe @ 2009-07-11T09:58:00

2009-07-11T15:30:37Z

I had orientation for the UA yesterday. I got signed up for classes but I still have a lot of other paper work to do. I revieved a big 'ol Pell Grant to take care of me the next two semesters. The ladies at the School of Social Work were extremely helpful. If I take full course loads the next few semesters I'll graduate in 2011. However, I can shorten that by taking summer classes, which I intend on doing. I'm really excited. Right now I'm taking 10 hrs. Taking French 101, Soc. Work 100, and Soc. Psych. I took the math placement and got into Math 112, but I haven't decided if my funds will cover another class right now.

I've been house hunting like mad lately with two other girls. We were really in love with one house that was located in Alberta City but we had to have a co-signer. Since it was in a bad part of town, none of our parents would sign for us. I've been waging war with my father the past week or so over the fact that I am moving. I've been trying to build boundaries like crazy with that. Whatever his problems are, aren't mine and he can't live my life. I'll be so much happier being closer to school, work, someone I care about, and a gym.

Anyway, we saw two houses yesterday that we all three liked. However, I like/love one more than the other and one of the girls feels the complete opposite, leaving the third girl in the middle. She's leaning my way though so I'm stoked. The old guy that's renting it seemed genuinely interested in us as people, and insisted that we look around the place by ourselves. While we were inside, we watched him walk behind my car and check out the stickers on it. Then when he came back in was like, "Noticed you like music, Baak Gwai and Oz". I'm thinking he may be a professor of some sort since he seemed really in the know for his age. The house needs a lot of work, but we're really excited about helping fix it up (me and the other girl) if we can.

I joined a gym last month and that's been really great for me. I feel so much more mentally and physically sharp. I have so much more stamina and get less winded. I've been really wanting to go hiking somewhere steep, but I know I'll have to hold out a little bit longer for that. I don't know if I have any real goals with it all though, I guess just to be in better shape.

Andrew and I went up to North Carolina last weekend. It had its ups and downs. Since the area we went to is huge on white water rafting, the place was covered in people. We also got a flat tire on the way there in which he had to spend a lot of money on a new tire. Since every hotel/motel was sold out, the only place we could find was a motel called the Starlight Motel. We stayed in an Elvis themed jacuzzi room for a night. It was fucking amazing, trashy and glorious. The last night we camped out in the Blue Ridge Mts. It started raining at around 3:30 AM so we piled everything back into the car and sat in the Bojangle's parking lot until it opened, then headed home. It was absolutely beautiful there. I recommend going to visit Bryson City, NC if you ever want to get away. The Nantahala River stays in the 40s year round so it was too cold to swim in. But I'd like to go back and white water raft sometime.
We've had our many ups and downs, but I'm thinking I'm on the verge of "in love" with this boy. It sounds ridiculous, but goddamn. I'm happy and he's such a beautiful person and has brought and shown me so much beauty this past year. I'm really just tired of running away from my feelings and being stupid as fuck.

My life is just where I want it to be. I've stopped trying to count my chickens before they hatch and live in the now. I'll deal with what's thrown my way when it happens.

noroomtobreathe @ 2008-12-24T19:49:00

2008-12-25T01:49:46Z

In 2009, noroomtobreathe resolves to...

Spend less time on formica.
Cut down on my traveling.
Learn to play the music.
Cut down to ten guerilla girls a day.
Get back in contact with some old culinary arts.
Find a better depression.

Whoa is me.

2008-11-21T04:07:22Z

I started a blog.

www.deadbeatjess.blogspot.com

noroomtobreathe @ 2007-03-17T15:34:00

2007-03-17T15:50:42Z

Reid and I are stuck in New York until tomorrow morning. The weather was crazy yesterday. The snow was not snow but more like tiny dippin dots ice cream. Wednesday it was like 70 outside and we sat at Strawberry Fields for like an hour. Now we really just want to be home. I can only take so much sleeping on a floor.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-27T12:45:00

2006-07-27T17:45:13Z

Journal is friends only after this post.

- My sister's little internet boyfriend IMs me all the goddamn time. It's starting to piss me off and he's such a douchebag.
- Getting my hair cut in a bit. Probably going to suck like usual.
- ~~Beach fun time next week w/o my father (so I think)!~~ My father will be there.
- Oh, the things I would buy if I had a job!
- William Schaff is playing Bottletree next weekend. How excited am I? Very!
- I've aquired a lot of old dresses that I'm going to sell on ebay. That's once I figure out how to sell stuff on there...
- My Fat? So! book still hasn't gotten here. Apparently they're not shipping it from amazon.com until next week sometime. Ridiculous.
- Life isn't very exciting at the moment. I'm thinking about going to therapy.
- Oh, Reid and I drove all the way out to Leeds yesterday to go to The Pants Store (aka the Dickies store) in search of brown skirts. Yeah, they don't sell any women's Dickies at that location, only at the one on 3rd Ave W.
- Lastly, Prince is getting D-I-V-O-R-C-E-D.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-24T02:59:00

2006-07-24T07:59:50Z

The Sweds didn't disappoint.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-21T16:47:00

2006-07-21T21:47:38Z

I always get the most random phone calls from people.
This girl I was best friends with in elementary/middle school called and woke me up to tell me she's pregnant.
She said I should come visit her because she's on bed rest.
It really fucking peeves me when someone only wants to see/talk to me when it's on their own terms.
And I was also a doormat for her to unload her shit onto when we were young. So pfffffft.

Awesome things:
- Natasha Lyonne is alive!

She's got the cutest belly.
- Evil Dead the Musical!
- Going to see Clerks II tonight. Probably seeing it with a million people that haven't seen the first one.
- The Great Wave made of... BUNNIES!

Sucky things:
- Being forced to go to the beach with my parents next week sometime.
- Heat. It needs to be late November.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-20T02:48:00

2006-07-20T07:48:50Z

People that I want to meet:

1. Someone that has actually beat(en?) The Simpsons: Bart Vs the Space Mutants.

2. Someone that's been on a Nickelodeon game show between the years 1990 and 1999.

My NES needs to be fixed. Reid broke it and denies it. It doesn't just magically work at my house and not at his...

I finally ordered Fat! So? the other day. I can't wait to get it so I can begin reading.

Internet dudes.

2006-07-17T03:14:36Z

My baby sister is growing up and it sucks.
She's been talking to some 15 yr old from Georgia via game rooms. She lied to my mom about who he was and how she met him.
And then we came to find out that she, her friend from school and these dudes were suppose to meet them at the Galleria.
So my mom and I, along with Reid, all went with her today to meet up with these kids and one of their moms.
I'm pretty much like what the fuck, bad idea there sister. But she is also 14 and doesn't know better.
However, it was pretty fucking funny seeing Cassia that uncomfortable and nervous.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-16T02:56:00

2006-07-16T07:56:55Z

That billboard is on 459 between Morgan Rd. and 150 near ITT Tech (going toward Hoover).
I drove past it last night and my jaw fucking dropped and could only say "holy shit".
If you feel the need, go to the website and e-mail the fucker.

I think I came up with a name for the cookzine:
"Operation Vittles"
Thoughts?
(I really like the word vittles, btw.)

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-13T15:14:00

2006-07-13T20:14:22Z

There's a movie called Fur coming out this fall about Diane Arbus' life.
I'm friggin excited because it's going to be amazing. Nicole Kidman is playing her and I dunno how I feel about that. She always seems to play the same character.
The new love of my life, Robert Downy Jr., is also in it.

I'm really thinking about going to see Blotto tonight at Cave9. Any Japanese band is worth seeing.

Also, I think I'm going to start working on the cookbook zine that I wanted to do a while back.
However, since no one seemed remotely interested in it around here, it's going to be a fat girl's cookbook.
I think Virginia Jess (that's your new name, btw) is going to help me out.
But yeah, just an idea.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-11T03:38:00

2006-07-11T08:38:14Z

I'm trying to make it a point.. starting now.. to do more things.
I sit and watch tv all day and eat... eat because I'm fucking bored.
Fuck summer a whole bunch.
I need friends. A female best friend. Someone to talk to sometimes.
I think that's a healthy request.

Also thinking about going back to Party City, if they'll take me.
I was comfortable there. Pay was shit, but I knew what I was doing.

The World's Longest Yardsale is Aug. 3rd - 6th. I want to go so bad.
I don't care if I have to go alone, I'm at least going for a day.

ruv, twu ruv.

2006-07-09T08:30:56Z

Reid gave me the most awesome surprise tonight.

It's a 50s fridge Christmas ornament!
There's a set which includes a blue stove. I'm going to make him steal the rest for me. =)

I got a roll of film developed yesterday from when we went to south Alabama.

Monroe County historic courthouse ceiling.

Staircase.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-07T17:10:00

2006-07-07T22:10:41Z

I'm overly amused with myself.

My sister and I went to this small town grocery store near our house to get our mom a cake.
Came out with that FUCKING AMAZING CAKE.
When I went to ask the lady to put "Happy Birthday Mama" on it, my little sister wouldn't stop laughing. The lady was like "what?!".
I felt kinda bad for a second cause I think she liked the cake...

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-07T13:01:00

2006-07-07T18:01:59Z

It's my mom's birthday. She's 57 today. I love birthdays a whole lot!!
That photo was taken when she was like 17.

I got her a Josh Groban CD and An Officer & A Gentleman.
Oddly enough my sister sent her a Christian CD and DVD.
But there will be hibachi grill action tonight. Yum.

The summer of Mike O'Malley.

2006-07-06T06:40:57Z

So since we've gotten cable all I've really watched is Nick GAS.
Fucking Mike O'Malley is the man.

All of the game shows are ridiculous and I can't believe I enjoyed watching them when I was like 8.
There's some show called Finders Keeper that I've never seen before and it's impossible for 13 yr. olds to win.
As well as Legends of the Hidden Temple... and Nick Arcade.
GUTS... Now what a show there:
Players swim, jump, run and toss their way to the final challenge: the Aggro Crag! This mountain of smoke, snow and falling rocks puts fear into the hearts of every contestant who doesn't have guts.

Yeah.. sorry. I had to talk about that.

PS. This is brilliant & I'm thinking about buying one...

Arise then...women of this day! Arise, all women who have hearts! Whether your baptism be of water or of tears! Say firmly: "We will not have questions answered by irrelevant agencies, Our husbands will not come to us, reeking with carnage, For caresses and applause. Our sons shall not be taken from us to unlearn All that we have been able to teach them of charity, mercy and patience. We, the women of one country, Will be too tender of those of another country To allow our sons to be trained to injure theirs." From the voice of a devastated Earth a voice goes up with Our own. It says: "Disarm! Disarm! The sword of murder is not the balance of justice." Blood does not wipe our dishonor, Nor violence indicate possession. As men have often forsaken the plough and the anvil At the summons of war, Let women now leave all that may be left of home For a great and earnest day of counsel. Let them meet first, as women, to bewail and commemorate the dead. Let them solemnly take counsel with each other as to the means Whereby the great human family can live in peace... Each bearing after his own time the sacred impress, not of Caesar, But of God - In the name of womanhood and humanity, I earnestly ask That a general congress of women without limit of nationality, May be appointed and held at someplace deemed most convenient And the earliest period consistent with its objects, To promote the alliance of the different nationalities, The amicable settlement of international questions, The great and general interests of peace. - Julia Ward Howe

Curls.

2006-07-04T01:49:28Z

Uh, so I found my curlers and my mom helped me.
Not sure if I'm into it or not.. but it beats flat, fine hair.

I look mouse-y. And I don't know how to properly curl my hair. I want big rings.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-03T16:12:00

2006-07-03T21:12:49Z

Despite the fact that Rosario Dawson is in Clerks II, I'm fucking excited!

Clerks II trailer.

God, why does she have to be in it..

I've been having this huge craving for Dirt Cake. God.

Edit:
Currently missing my hot curlers & photos from NY.
Fuckal;dhfa.
However, did find my Easy Bake Oven & R.L. Stine books.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-07-02T16:14:00

2006-07-02T21:14:29Z

- Haven't really felt like leaving my house lately. I hate when I get like this.
- There's a hole in my mattress from a spring.
- Six Feet Under is the best television series in the world.
- I want to go see The Devil Wears Prada.
- Money fucking sucks.
- I want to go somewhere this summer that isn't Gulf Shores/inside of Alabama/the South.
- Not sure what to do about school this fall.
- Those black leggings/footless tights fucking suck, stop wearing them.
- I want curly hair.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-06-30T01:57:00

2006-06-30T06:57:40Z

We got Comcast cable today.. and I can't figure out "On Demand". Like do you have to pay for each thing you watch or what?
There are HBO shows on there that I want to watch.

On Wednesday Reid and I went with Jennifer and Vince to the zoo.
For the most part all of the animals looked sad/didn't move, it was hot, and the train sucked ass.
I did get to pet a pig and that shit was weird.
I got to be a giraffe.

There was also a zebra penis.

Two of my favorite animals!

I told Reid that I'd try to get him a pug for our 2 yr. anniversary. I've decided to name him Danzig. But it'd probably be fawn and not show quality cause they have health problems.

Awwwwwwwa;ldjfa.

Break up.

2006-06-28T14:59:37Z

Straight from Sleater-Kinney's website.

After eleven years as a band, Sleater-Kinney have decided to go on indefinite hiatus. The upcoming summer shows will be our last. As of now, there are no plans for future tours or recordings.

We feel lucky to have had the support of many wonderful people over the years. We want to thank everyone who has worked with us, written kind words about us, performed with us, and inspired us.

But mostly we want to extend our gratitude to our amazing fans. You have been a part of our story from the beginning. We could not have made our music without your enthusiasm, passion, and loyalty. It is you who have made the entire journey worthwhile.

With love and thanks,
Sleater-Kinney

Bummer.

noroomtobreathe @ 2006-06-27T00:55:00

2006-06-27T05:55:41Z

My dad has been really random lately.
He asked my mom the other day if he thought Reid and I would get married.
A day later he said he wanted to take Reid's parents out to dinner.
Then yesterday he decided that he wants to go to Chattanooga one weekend and that Reid and I should go.
My mom turns 57 next week. I'm gonna go buy her An Officer and a Gentleman plus some other stuff.

I got this movie at Movie Gallery for like a dollar the other day.
I haven't watched it yet, but it fucking has Elisabeth Daily in it!
(Boob girl from Valley Girl, Dottie from Pee Wee's Big Adv.)

My little sister kinda upset me earlier. She's all worried about her weight/thinks she's fat. She's def. not.
She's 14 and shouldn't be worried with that shit. Gah.

Went to Jen and Vince's last night for Jennifer's birthday. I had a lot of fun.
We're all going to the zoo on Wednesday and we better ride the train!