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[24 Oct 2009|09:05am] |
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Do guys not ask girls out on dates anymore? I'm tired of just "hanging out" and the expectation of more to be there. Fucking buy me a dinner.
School is going... slowly. I love my Social Psych class so much. It's made me kinda want to major in psychology but ehhh, pass.
I turn 24 in ten days. Kind of wild. I bought a birthday dress.. I will party in it, even if I have to do it alone.
My parents bought me new spex for my b'day:
Missed the Meat Puppets this week and that was a fucking bummer.
I guess everything else is going well.
I may be going down to Florida Halloween weekend.
But probably not: refer back to the first thing I said.
I'm tired of pursuing.. fuck 'em.
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[31 Aug 2009|04:50pm] |
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Ya can't fake love.
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[27 Aug 2009|07:54pm] |
I'm on the cusp of fine madness.
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There's a canteen in the hospital that I frequent once a day at work. Since I'm in there so much I'll say hi to the employees and ask how they are, etc. There's this one older man in there that is possibly a volunteer, I'm not sure. But I do know that he's a little slower, something is obviously mentally wrong with him. He's fond of me and I of him. I can tell some days that he's more agitated or down than others. Today while I was in line to buy my soda, I told him hi like normal and he went on about his work. Then he came back up to me and said, "Jessica, you know, we can talk to a lot of people, but sometimes we just have to stop and talk to God. Just stop and talk to God more often." Then he just walked away.
This happened about an hour after a visit to my therapist, ya know, someone I pay to talk to.
Maybe he's right.
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Last night I had to drag a very drunk guy back into his hotel room. He was in the hallway knocking on doors, really upset that if he dies, that all it's worth is half-mass. It took me and another dude to get him to chill out. I just had to walk away in shock.
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[11 Jul 2009|09:58am] |
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I had orientation for the UA yesterday. I got signed up for classes but I still have a lot of other paper work to do. I revieved a big 'ol Pell Grant to take care of me the next two semesters. The ladies at the School of Social Work were extremely helpful. If I take full course loads the next few semesters I'll graduate in 2011. However, I can shorten that by taking summer classes, which I intend on doing. I'm really excited. Right now I'm taking 10 hrs. Taking French 101, Soc. Work 100, and Soc. Psych. I took the math placement and got into Math 112, but I haven't decided if my funds will cover another class right now.
I've been house hunting like mad lately with two other girls. We were really in love with one house that was located in Alberta City but we had to have a co-signer. Since it was in a bad part of town, none of our parents would sign for us. I've been waging war with my father the past week or so over the fact that I am moving. I've been trying to build boundaries like crazy with that. Whatever his problems are, aren't mine and he can't live my life. I'll be so much happier being closer to school, work, someone I care about, and a gym.
Anyway, we saw two houses yesterday that we all three liked. However, I like/love one more than the other and one of the girls feels the complete opposite, leaving the third girl in the middle. She's leaning my way though so I'm stoked. The old guy that's renting it seemed genuinely interested in us as people, and insisted that we look around the place by ourselves. While we were inside, we watched him walk behind my car and check out the stickers on it. Then when he came back in was like, "Noticed you like music, Baak Gwai and Oz". I'm thinking he may be a professor of some sort since he seemed really in the know for his age. The house needs a lot of work, but we're really excited about helping fix it up (me and the other girl) if we can.
I joined a gym last month and that's been really great for me. I feel so much more mentally and physically sharp. I have so much more stamina and get less winded. I've been really wanting to go hiking somewhere steep, but I know I'll have to hold out a little bit longer for that. I don't know if I have any real goals with it all though, I guess just to be in better shape.
Andrew and I went up to North Carolina last weekend. It had its ups and downs. Since the area we went to is huge on white water rafting, the place was covered in people. We also got a flat tire on the way there in which he had to spend a lot of money on a new tire. Since every hotel/motel was sold out, the only place we could find was a motel called the Starlight Motel. We stayed in an Elvis themed jacuzzi room for a night. It was fucking amazing, trashy and glorious. The last night we camped out in the Blue Ridge Mts. It started raining at around 3:30 AM so we piled everything back into the car and sat in the Bojangle's parking lot until it opened, then headed home. It was absolutely beautiful there. I recommend going to visit Bryson City, NC if you ever want to get away. The Nantahala River stays in the 40s year round so it was too cold to swim in. But I'd like to go back and white water raft sometime.
We've had our many ups and downs, but I'm thinking I'm on the verge of "in love" with this boy. It sounds ridiculous, but goddamn. I'm happy and he's such a beautiful person and has brought and shown me so much beauty this past year. I'm really just tired of running away from my feelings and being stupid as fuck.
My life is just where I want it to be. I've stopped trying to count my chickens before they hatch and live in the now. I'll deal with what's thrown my way when it happens.
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[24 Dec 2008|07:49pm] |
In 2009,  noroomtobreathe resolves to... Spend less time on formica.
Cut down on my traveling.
Learn to play the music.
Cut down to ten guerilla girls a day.
Get back in contact with some old culinary arts.
Find a better depression.
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| Whoa is me. |
[20 Nov 2008|10:06pm] |
I started a blog.
www.deadbeatjess.blogspot.com
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[17 Mar 2007|03:34pm] |
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Reid and I are stuck in New York until tomorrow morning. The weather was crazy yesterday. The snow was not snow but more like tiny dippin dots ice cream. Wednesday it was like 70 outside and we sat at Strawberry Fields for like an hour. Now we really just want to be home. I can only take so much sleeping on a floor.
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[27 Jul 2006|12:45pm] |
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Journal is friends only after this post.
- My sister's little internet boyfriend IMs me all the goddamn time. It's starting to piss me off and he's such a douchebag.
- Getting my hair cut in a bit. Probably going to suck like usual.
- Beach fun time next week w/o my father (so I think)! My father will be there.
- Oh, the things I would buy if I had a job!
- William Schaff is playing Bottletree next weekend. How excited am I? Very!
- I've aquired a lot of old dresses that I'm going to sell on ebay. That's once I figure out how to sell stuff on there...
- My Fat? So! book still hasn't gotten here. Apparently they're not shipping it from amazon.com until next week sometime. Ridiculous.
- Life isn't very exciting at the moment. I'm thinking about going to therapy.
- Oh, Reid and I drove all the way out to Leeds yesterday to go to The Pants Store (aka the Dickies store) in search of brown skirts. Yeah, they don't sell any women's Dickies at that location, only at the one on 3rd Ave W.
- Lastly, Prince is getting D-I-V-O-R-C-E-D.
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[24 Jul 2006|02:59am] |
The Sweds didn't disappoint.
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[21 Jul 2006|04:47pm] |
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I always get the most random phone calls from people.
This girl I was best friends with in elementary/middle school called and woke me up to tell me she's pregnant.
She said I should come visit her because she's on bed rest.
It really fucking peeves me when someone only wants to see/talk to me when it's on their own terms.
And I was also a doormat for her to unload her shit onto when we were young. So pfffffft.
Awesome things:
- Natasha Lyonne is alive!
She's got the cutest belly.
- Evil Dead the Musical!
- Going to see Clerks II tonight. Probably seeing it with a million people that haven't seen the first one.
- The Great Wave made of... BUNNIES!
Sucky things:
- Being forced to go to the beach with my parents next week sometime.
- Heat. It needs to be late November.
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[20 Jul 2006|02:48am] |
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People that I want to meet:
1. Someone that has actually beat(en?) The Simpsons: Bart Vs the Space Mutants.
2. Someone that's been on a Nickelodeon game show between the years 1990 and 1999.
My NES needs to be fixed. Reid broke it and denies it. It doesn't just magically work at my house and not at his...
I finally ordered Fat! So? the other day. I can't wait to get it so I can begin reading.
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[16 Jul 2006|10:14pm] |
My baby sister is growing up and it sucks.
She's been talking to some 15 yr old from Georgia via game rooms. She lied to my mom about who he was and how she met him.
And then we came to find out that she, her friend from school and these dudes were suppose to meet them at the Galleria.
So my mom and I, along with Reid, all went with her today to meet up with these kids and one of their moms.
I'm pretty much like what the fuck, bad idea there sister. But she is also 14 and doesn't know better.
However, it was pretty fucking funny seeing Cassia that uncomfortable and nervous.
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[16 Jul 2006|02:56am] |
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That billboard is on 459 between Morgan Rd. and 150 near ITT Tech (going toward Hoover).
I drove past it last night and my jaw fucking dropped and could only say "holy shit".
If you feel the need, go to the website and e-mail the fucker.
I think I came up with a name for the cookzine:
"Operation Vittles"
Thoughts?
(I really like the word vittles, btw.)
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[13 Jul 2006|03:14pm] |
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There's a movie called Fur coming out this fall about Diane Arbus' life.
I'm friggin excited because it's going to be amazing. Nicole Kidman is playing her and I dunno how I feel about that. She always seems to play the same character.
The new love of my life, Robert Downy Jr., is also in it.
I'm really thinking about going to see Blotto tonight at Cave9. Any Japanese band is worth seeing.
Also, I think I'm going to start working on the cookbook zine that I wanted to do a while back.
However, since no one seemed remotely interested in it around here, it's going to be a fat girl's cookbook.
I think Virginia Jess (that's your new name, btw) is going to help me out.
But yeah, just an idea.
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[11 Jul 2006|03:38am] |
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I'm trying to make it a point.. starting now.. to do more things.
I sit and watch tv all day and eat... eat because I'm fucking bored.
Fuck summer a whole bunch.
I need friends. A female best friend. Someone to talk to sometimes.
I think that's a healthy request.
Also thinking about going back to Party City, if they'll take me.
I was comfortable there. Pay was shit, but I knew what I was doing.
The World's Longest Yardsale is Aug. 3rd - 6th. I want to go so bad.
I don't care if I have to go alone, I'm at least going for a day.
( I'd also like to own these pairs of shoes. )
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| ruv, twu ruv. |
[09 Jul 2006|03:30am] |
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Reid gave me the most awesome surprise tonight.
It's a 50s fridge Christmas ornament!
There's a set which includes a blue stove. I'm going to make him steal the rest for me. =)
( More... )
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[07 Jul 2006|05:10pm] |
I'm overly amused with myself.
My sister and I went to this small town grocery store near our house to get our mom a cake.
Came out with that FUCKING AMAZING CAKE.
When I went to ask the lady to put "Happy Birthday Mama" on it, my little sister wouldn't stop laughing. The lady was like "what?!".
I felt kinda bad for a second cause I think she liked the cake...
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[07 Jul 2006|01:01pm] |
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It's my mom's birthday. She's 57 today. I love birthdays a whole lot!!
That photo was taken when she was like 17.
I got her a Josh Groban CD and An Officer & A Gentleman.
Oddly enough my sister sent her a Christian CD and DVD.
But there will be hibachi grill action tonight. Yum.
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| The summer of Mike O'Malley. |
[06 Jul 2006|01:41am] |
So since we've gotten cable all I've really watched is Nick GAS.
Fucking Mike O'Malley is the man.
All of the game shows are ridiculous and I can't believe I enjoyed watching them when I was like 8.
There's some show called Finders Keeper that I've never seen before and it's impossible for 13 yr. olds to win.
As well as Legends of the Hidden Temple... and Nick Arcade.
GUTS... Now what a show there:
Players swim, jump, run and toss their way to the final challenge: the Aggro Crag! This mountain of smoke, snow and falling rocks puts fear into the hearts of every contestant who doesn't have guts.
Yeah.. sorry. I had to talk about that.
PS. This is brilliant & I'm thinking about buying one...
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| Curls. |
[03 Jul 2006|08:49pm] |
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Uh, so I found my curlers and my mom helped me.
Not sure if I'm into it or not.. but it beats flat, fine hair.
( Yay or nay? )
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